Baby #2 Due October 2025

We wanted to have another baby two years ago.... Obviously the universe had other plans because despite our best efforts of trying it just wasn't happening for us. In December of 2024 we decided we were content, we gave it our best effort and we were done trying for baby number two. We started cleaning out our basement, donating and giving away baby stuff. Fast Forward the day we were leaving for our Jamaica Trip, waiting for our car to pick us up at 2:30am. At 2am, I felt like I had a voice tell me (I know it sounds crazy), but I had a voice tell me "check, your ready now". I just had this overwhelming feeling of I need to take a test. SO... I did, and I waited the 3-5 minutes and when I turned it over I was stunned at the results. I brought it down to my husband and said "I'm pregnant..." we both couldn't believe it really.

So, I spent a week in Jamaica digesting this news telling only those who were on the trip with me and my immediate family. Little did we know we were already almost three months into this pregnancy. So many things started to make sense. Prior to the trip or knowing this information, I was feeling tired, burnt out, not myself, sick at times, and just very overwhelmed. It scared me a little bit. I thought maybe I need to go talk to someone, maybe I need to figure out a medication with my doctor because I really just felt not myself. But once I got the news, it all made sense.

I had a medium two years ago tell me I was going to be pregnant again, this time with a girl. However, my aunt seems to be hitting gender spot on based on the hairline of a baby. She's got many gender guesses right so I was conflicted on what to believe. However if you know me, and a little of my back story you would know that I always preferred to be a boy mom. I won't go into grave detail on why (if you know you know). So for two years I just kept wishing a baby boy into my life. When I say the universe had other plans it sure did, and I truly believe it was giving me a re-do. A re-do of pregnancy, a re-do of having a girl child in my life.

During my pregnancy with Dominic, I was completely in a high stress, almost survival mode type situation. Not due to my husband just due to the circumstance that surrounded us at the time. At the time I didn't know I was depressed while pregnant. I didn't feel any pregnancy symptoms other then Dominic moving and watching my belly get bigger. I was just on the go with no stop in me. I felt like I had to, I was always in a flight or flight mindset. When I had Dominic, I was slapped with post partum depression. I had felt broke in ways I didn't even think I was able to be broken, all contributing to the circumstance surrounding me.

With this baby, my body literally will stop working if I'm doing to much, I've been forced to be present with how I feel, and take in this being my last child. When I found out we were having a girl, I cried for two days. I know that sounds extra stupid considering there are people who can't have children and who have lost children and I should feel privileged I get that. BUT it brought up a lot of feelings. My husband was extremely understanding and gave me a little pep talk. He allowed me to lean into my feelings but refused to allow me to stay there reminding me that I am a great mom, and I need to figure out how to put to rest and be okay with the feelings I have, because I will have a baby girl soon who will need a strong and healthy mom (like Dominic). He (like many who knew I was struggling) reminded me that children are not the same...

I allowed my mind to convince me that I'm not worthy and I'm not a good mom. And I know some out there feel this way about me. BUT I look at what I have overcome and accomplished, and how my first child is, the life I built for myself, the partner I have and the life we have been building together, and you know what... I'm okay with people thinking I'm not a good mom. They haven't slid on the shoes I had to wear and walk in them. They observed from the outside and gave an extremely narrow uneducated perspective on what they think.

We are excited to bring baby two into the world, and Dominic has been very diligent to make sure I'm okay, ask a lot of questions about the baby, and he's been extremely gentle and kind always giving kisses and hugs to his baby sister from the outside. I'm excited for him to be a big brother, and for this new chapter.

I am still working through some stuff, HOWEVER I am in the strongest mindset I've ever been in and I feel so proud of myself that I kept on moving forward, and put in the work.

No official names for baby two yet!! But we are excited for her arrival!

-Christina